Yesterday, at 10.00 a.m camtue, Dalilah officially left the house for MRSM Baling.
Giler susah nk control tears. Nak nangis giler2.. tp sabar jerlaa~
All I said to her... " Don't cry.." n her replies.. "I won't.." It's actually a mantra for me.. I can't cry. Obviously...~
Bukan dia nk prg mana pun.. nk further study jer pun.
Deep inside my heart I hope she came back. Tapi x baik kan doa camtue.. I should doa for her safety for her happiness n for her success.
Nasib baik smlm sgt hectic. I was moving around KL the whole day. So my mind was a bit off. Xdela terfikir sgt pasal her nt being here.
Tp while driving smlm.. as usual on the radio.. normal station fly.fm. Dalilah memorize most of the songs there.. She would normally sing along with the songs. Semalam byk laa plak her fav songs. Biler dgr jer, mst terdetik jer dlm hati.. "this is her fav songs.." n then mula laa nk nangis. But I can't.. ada 2 org budak lelaki yg giler x gentleman dlm keta tuhh~ *bluekkk*
Lps nie dh xde dah nk hntr n amik adik frm KUMON. No sending n picking her up from tuition. No squash practice for her anymore. No teman for me at any kenduri anymore... No more budak kecik in the hse. Jarang dh dpt usik adik~ Dh xde rumate.. dh x boleh membebel kt dia bila dia sepahkan almari baju. Giler sunyi~ Sebulan sekali jer boleh gaduh dgn dia~
I know.. sooner or later she'll leave the house jugak. But I don't expect it to be this soon. I mean she's only 13.... All of us are against her decision.. but dia punyer degil.. Nauzubillah hi min zalik... Extremely degil. She wins.
I hope she'll be fine over there. I hope she'll excel in her studies. Semoga Allah melindungi dia.
*i'll miss her T_T*
Giler susah nk control tears. Nak nangis giler2.. tp sabar jerlaa~
All I said to her... " Don't cry.." n her replies.. "I won't.." It's actually a mantra for me.. I can't cry. Obviously...~
Bukan dia nk prg mana pun.. nk further study jer pun.
Deep inside my heart I hope she came back. Tapi x baik kan doa camtue.. I should doa for her safety for her happiness n for her success.
Nasib baik smlm sgt hectic. I was moving around KL the whole day. So my mind was a bit off. Xdela terfikir sgt pasal her nt being here.
Tp while driving smlm.. as usual on the radio.. normal station fly.fm. Dalilah memorize most of the songs there.. She would normally sing along with the songs. Semalam byk laa plak her fav songs. Biler dgr jer, mst terdetik jer dlm hati.. "this is her fav songs.." n then mula laa nk nangis. But I can't.. ada 2 org budak lelaki yg giler x gentleman dlm keta tuhh~ *bluekkk*
Lps nie dh xde dah nk hntr n amik adik frm KUMON. No sending n picking her up from tuition. No squash practice for her anymore. No teman for me at any kenduri anymore... No more budak kecik in the hse. Jarang dh dpt usik adik~ Dh xde rumate.. dh x boleh membebel kt dia bila dia sepahkan almari baju. Giler sunyi~ Sebulan sekali jer boleh gaduh dgn dia~
I know.. sooner or later she'll leave the house jugak. But I don't expect it to be this soon. I mean she's only 13.... All of us are against her decision.. but dia punyer degil.. Nauzubillah hi min zalik... Extremely degil. She wins.
I hope she'll be fine over there. I hope she'll excel in her studies. Semoga Allah melindungi dia.
*i'll miss her T_T*
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