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My Beloved Grandma
My grandma is the one who took care of me since I was lil girl. Well, not only me.. my 2 lil bro n my other lil sis.

My grandma is the one who will make the unique 'air asam' for me when there's nothing spicy for me to eat for dinner.

My grandma is the one who will make me the most yummylicious 'pajeri nenas' I've ever tasted in my entire life.

My grandma is the only one who'll do anything for me.

My grandma is the only one who can cook the best 'bengkang' a.k.a kuih bakar in the whole wide world universe.

Now.. 

There'll be none. NIL...

I did not manage to learn all those recipes from her..

I did not manage to learn all the cooking techniques..

I bought her an english cotton cloth..for her baju raya.. but I guess I'll never see her wear it ever again. My mum asked me the other day,to whom I wanna give the kain to..?? *silence*

I did not manage to meet her before she close her eyes forever..

However..

I manage to bath her for the last time..

I manage to put her last cloth on her..

I manage to kiss her cold forehead for the last time..

It's not much..it wasn't enough either.. but Allah has better plan for me.


INITIALLY there were 7 of us in the house NOW it's down to 5 (technically it's 4 as 1 is in Baling)

INITIALLY we need to drove 2 cars should we need to go anywhere..NOW 1 car is more than enough

INITIALLY I will always hear sumone membebel to me..NOW it's a lil bit too quiet

alas... my life will never be the same anymore..

It's been a pretty rough start for me... My emotion has been going on the roller coster mode ever since the month of February and it haven't stop yet. I am pretty sure abt it.

It's been pretty hard..at one point of time I feel like crying in the middle of work and obviously I can't let my colleague sees it.

Again..for the second time.. I decide nt to sit for my ACCA exam this sems. I dun think I can. 

Almost everyday I'll wake up in the middle of the night..sometimes I manage to sleep back sometimes I end up crying in my room.

I just hope I'll be given enough strength to endure all this.

For now...all I need to do fake a smile on my face. I'll be fine. 
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I hope she'll be fine...
Yesterday, at 10.00 a.m camtue, Dalilah officially left the house for MRSM Baling.

Giler susah nk control tears. Nak nangis giler2.. tp sabar jerlaa~

All I said to her... " Don't cry.." n her replies.. "I won't.." It's actually a mantra for me.. I can't cry. Obviously...~

Bukan dia nk prg mana pun.. nk further study jer pun.

Deep inside my heart I hope she came back. Tapi x baik kan doa camtue.. I should doa for her safety for her happiness n for her success.

Nasib baik smlm sgt hectic. I was moving around KL the whole day. So my mind was a bit off. Xdela terfikir sgt pasal her nt being here.

Tp while driving smlm.. as usual on the radio.. normal station fly.fm. Dalilah memorize most of the songs there.. She would normally sing along with the songs. Semalam byk laa plak her fav songs. Biler dgr jer, mst terdetik jer dlm hati.. "this is her fav songs.." n then mula laa nk nangis. But I can't.. ada 2 org budak lelaki yg giler x gentleman dlm keta tuhh~ *bluekkk*

Lps nie dh xde dah nk hntr n amik adik frm KUMON. No sending n picking her up from tuition. No squash practice for her anymore. No teman for me at any kenduri anymore... No more budak kecik in the hse. Jarang dh dpt usik adik~ Dh xde rumate.. dh x boleh membebel kt dia bila dia sepahkan almari baju. Giler sunyi~ Sebulan sekali jer boleh gaduh dgn dia~

I know.. sooner or later she'll leave the house jugak. But I don't expect it to be this soon. I mean she's only 13.... All of us are against her decision.. but dia punyer degil.. Nauzubillah hi min zalik... Extremely degil. She wins.

I hope she'll be fine over there. I hope she'll excel in her studies. Semoga Allah melindungi dia.

*i'll miss her T_T*
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.:: aja aja fighting ::.


This entry is solely dedicated to a good friend of mine. Aja Aja Adrianis Adnan.. Chaiyokk Anis !!!

Good Luck.. All the best Anis.. Anis boleh !!! Go!! Go!! Go!!..

I will always pray for our success.

Usaha keras ini adalah sunnah Rasulullah, Tawakkal itu pula jiwa baginda..

Bittaufiq wan najah Nur Adrianis Adnan..

p/s:- i know u'll read this.. good luck !!

hugs and kisses all the way from subang jaya
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.:: tadaaaa ::.
I am back to Malaysia truly Asia... ^_^

Alhamdulillah.. after several dramas.. including the one at Heathrow, I finally is back home for good Insya' Allah.

Dah report duty jugak and Alhamdulillah.. moga inche' Petronas panggil saya bekerja secepat mungkin. *amin ya rabbal alamin*

And to all my dearest + lovely frenz.. mari2 kita berjumpa. Sumpah rindu pada kamu semua.. but with one condition... please..please do not ask me the 'bonus' question... boleyh??

"Diana camner.. Diana biler plak??"

"dh ada yang punyer ker??"

"tahun nie xde nasi minyak ker??"

just.stop.it

tak mau dgr dah all the bonus quest boleyh?? Nanti kalau ada, saya xkn rahsiakan. I will spill out everything.. maka x perlu ditanya. Bila, di mana, siapa... semua itu akan saya ceritakan di suatu waktu dan ketika nanti. Yang pasti bukan di waktu terdekat ini.

Dulu korang bising bila nak habis blaja.. dh hbs blaja korang bombard aku dgn soklan2 nie plak ehh. Bahagia betul hidup korang membuli aku kan... :haih:

Regardless of that.. I still love u guyz.. very much indeed.. ^_^
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