...but all she can do is to spill out everything in her blog o_O
I promised myself before that I will try nt to write any sappy + mushy2 + teary entries in this blog. But I guess...it all goes to the drain now.
Hahahaha.. intro gaya2 macam entri nie akan menyebabkan sesiapa sahaja yang baca berlinangan air mata jer. (ciknurdiana yg poyo :P)
But it's true though.. that's what I'm feeling rite now. Saya rasa seperti ada perkara yang saya ingin luahkan.. tapi saya x tahu saya nk luahkan pada siapa. Nt that I dun have any good friends.. I have superb friends around me insya'Allah. It's just ME!!! The problem is me rite now. I can't seem to bother them with the thought that I'm having currently. Rasa macam x smp hati nk cerita kat org len masalah sendiri when I know they have plenty in their heads at the moment. Well.. I perfectly know they are more than willing to listen to every words I'm gonna say but like I said it's just ME !!. Tatkala saya ingin cuba menceritakan apa yang ada dalam hati saya.. there will be this some kind of whispering in my head yg akan cakap.."ala Diana, masalah awak remeh temeh jer ni..". Acapkali bila ditanya, saya akan mengatakan.. "xdela.. xde apa2 pun". I know.. no one can help me unless I help myself first. :sigh:
Saya tahu x elok bottle-up all the problems that I'm having currently..but I guess I need helps..I need all the helps that I could get actually for sumone to actually pull the bottle cap. I sound so pathetic rite now.. BUT nak buat camner mmg saya sgt pathetic pun sekarang ni. I seriously felt like crying now.. tapi the tears mcm reluctant nk klua. It's so MISERABLE you know to be in this emotional state.
PMS-ing ker nie? I dun think so !!
Betulla when my friend said that I am actually the most complicated gurl ever exist. Saya x nk ckp.. n I expect people to understand. *hahahaha* Bukan saya x nak cakap.. tapi saya malu nak cakap >.<
Colour of the day: Grey maybe??
I have so many things that I wanna talk about..
BUT.. I dunno where or how to start..
I have so much thoughts in my mind rite now..
BUT.. pretty limited time too..
I'll make time for it.. I promise..
I guess one of my entry title had cause a bit of misunderstanding laa..
The one abt the cerekarama I watched at youtube.com... I was curious upon a visit from sumone in Bandung, Jawa Barat, Indonesia who stumbled upon my blog by googling through the search engine over there. So I clicked on the link and.. ooOppS.. I saw sth that I should have not seen.
Aduhai... kok mengapa sih bisa jadi begini ya? Emangnya gue enggak bermaksud begitu.
*peneng*peneng* o_O
Aisy... sangat2 geram yer saya di waktu ini. Hendak sahaja rasanya dicampak telefon bimbit itu ke dinding. Mungkin lebih senang jika tidak memilikinya. Haih.. mana x geram !!! Entah mamat bangla ker india ker pakistan ker afghanistan ker mana ker yang tiba2 jd stalker x hengat nie. Dhla miss call dekat seploh kali sehari.. kadang2 tengah2 malam plak tue call.
Worst thing is... he is nt the only one. Dah few times jugak and dh few numbers jugak.
Saya malas nk layan dh pkck2 giler nie.. maka akhirnya saya membuat keputusan untuk terus menukar number phone saya. Senang~
Cuma skrg nie tgh peneng... nk stick to celcom or nk amik maxis?? or nk try digi. Celcom.. konon2 nk jd loyal customer laa.. kunun2 nya laa. Maxis sebab mcm ramai jer umat manusia i.e. rakan2 saya yg menggunakan line ini. Digi sebab saya x pernah try lagi.. maka seperti terasa ingin mencuba sesuatu yang baru. Almaklumla.. kata orang x kenal maka x cinta. Beside kalau dah cuba.. baru blh make a wiser decision later on kan.. sebab dh ada experience guna all the service provider and macam sedikit adventure gitu to try sth new.
Tapi.. serious saya sgt hangen satu badan nie.. Eeeeeee... Hamlau manala yg letak number phone saya nie merata-rata !!!
colour of the day:- merah laa kot.. sebab tgh marah nie !!!
Extreme awalnyer ciknurdiana..*hikhikhik*..
Yer..yer..saya tau. Tapi memandangkan hari raya yang bakal menjelang dlm kurang dr 48 jam shj nie.. saya rasa saya pun nak join sekaki berbicara pasal topik ini. Boleyh kan?? *wink*
Rite.. tahun ni tak sama seperti tahun yang lepas2. at least last year, sempat juga saya bake cookies utk family. Tahun nie..walaupun dh duk kt rumah jer n xde buat kerja lain.. tp sumpah sgt malas utk bake cookies. Saya hanya jadi driver cum tutor to my sweet little comrades ^_^..
Insya'Allah tahun ni my family akan buat bbq party seawal malam pertama raya.. nie sekali harung dgn open hse nie. Actually nak buat small gath utk family n friends.. tetiba cam teramai plak ahli jemputannya. Bak kata ibu, rumah kita selalu macam tue, plan nk buat utk 20-30 org jer.. alih2 nk dekat seratus jugak jd jemputannya. *alhamdulillah..murah rezeki insya'Allah*
Since the event would be at nite.. maka utk pagi raya itu, saya akan masak ala kadar sahaja. Maybe ketupat nasi + rendang jer kot. Rendang kena buat malam esok nie.. Kalau lmbt sgt kang len plak jadinyer. Hurmm.. esok pagi kena anyam ketupat nie, kalau lmbt kang biler nk merebus plak. Nanti x pasal2 berebut dapur.
Kuih raya ehh... macam xde satu pun dlm simpanan nie. Hari tue waktu awal2 puasa dulu ada gak buat choc chip cookies. Konon2nya nk simpan smp raya laa.. sekali dh hbs awl2 lagi pun~ *haih*. Nmpk gayanya perlu membuat kuih raya secara segera ini. Buat yg gaya men campak2 jer.. Hurmm.. dalam kepala nie macam nk buat macam2 tp sempat ker erk?? Nak buat cornflakes madu, biskut kelapa, choc chips, rempeyek, kuih tiram, kacang goreng ohhhh n my luvly sarang semut.. (^_^). Cukup laa tue. Buat satu adunan jer setiap satu pun dah cukup kan.
Utk bbq plak.. normal food. Ikan, sotong, udang n sausages. Ayam mmg x masuk list.. sebab saya dh sgt2 muak dgn ayam. Sausages tue pun amik sebab pk ada kanak2 riang ribena. Pastue buat soto ayam sket n celur bihun jugak.. so dh dpt bihun sup cenggitu. For dessert, puding susu cocktail, trifle n cuppies (sesame street theme). Cukup2 dah tue.. buat sket2 jer, malam bukan org makan byk sgt pun. Guest approximation dlm 50-60 org kot.
See.. simple jer kan food kami for raya nie kan~ Yerla start from raya kedua..semua dh di'paksarela'kan utk mula berpuasa enam..*equal to 1000 month tau..maka sile berpuasa yer rakan2*
I just love talking abt food. Macam sgt seronok pk pasal ini. The planning and all~ sangat menarik hati.. Sangat sukela bagi org makan. Macam bahagia jer rasa..*provided food sedap laa.. kalau x sedap lari masuk bwh meja*
Ohh n the colour for this post.. hmpphh apa erk jijat?? *wink* Macam nk letak warna purple jer.. sebab saya rasa sgt2 happy nie. ^_^
Guess what~...
I just had a chat with a friend of mine.. a petronas scholar and a coursemate as well..
Oh my... the news I received make my heart x tenteram laa. Tetiba perasaan nk menjadi paranoid itu wujud kembali. Camner nie??
Few people already received the job offer from our beloved sponsor. Tapi.. Diana jer yg x dpt2 lg nie. Sudah sgt cuak x hengat dunia nie. I dunno. Suddenly terfikir macam mana kalau I won't get the job smp hbs tempoh 6 bulan nie?? Skrg nie bolehla... my time are fill with tutoring cum driver for my lil bro n sis. Takkan 6 bulan tue nk hidup begitu?? That is ridiculously crazy kan??
What if, they won't hire me pun? Is there such possibilities??
Ya Allah, cepatkanlah dan permudahkanlah rezeki hambaMu ini Ya Allah. Aku benar2 ingin membantu mengukuhkan kewangan keluargaku. Ya Allah..amin ya rabbal alamin.
and that title refers to miss-not-so-kecik Nur Dalilah Zulkarnain a.k.a my lil sis..
Tomorrow will mark her so called merdeka day.. yerla esok she'll be officially free from any exams during her primary school years. She'll finish her PSRA exams esok...and she's been given us the hint that she'll be free soon~
haih.. that girl~
In a way she resembles me.. a lot indeed. But in some aspects she's totally different. It's like I can see a resemblance of us 3 in her. She got all of our main 'cute behaviour' with her. She's like super duper relax + calm for all her exams.. which is so not me !!!. That's the traits of her 2 brothers.. She's silly + clumsy like me. She's moody like me. She do thinks like me in some way though~. Well, the only difference is that.. she's extremely smart compared to the rest of us. (hate to admit it.. but that's for real)
Klaka laa... when u actually see urself in sumone else. Ibu keep on saying.. she's totally you Diana.. and all my aunt + uncle keep on saying hw she looks like me when I was young except that I'm much fairer.
Hmpphh.. I guess I would be seeing her face all the time now. Confirm mkck nie x nak prg school punyerla lps nie~..
Haih.. adik sape laa nie??? :bluekk:
Itu adalah tajuk cerekarama yang saya tonton di laman web youtube.com tadi. Sebenarnya, tidak berniat pun hendak menonton drama itu, tapi seperti biasa.. saya 'berjalan-jalan' di laman web tersebut dan akhirnya saya terpaut untuk menonton cerekarama tersebut.. kerana tajuknya yang saya kira cukup mencuit hati. Comel bukan?? ^_^
Saya kira, cerekarama itu pasti ditayangkan sewaktu sambutan hari ibu tahun ini. Jalan ceritanya sangat menarik.. lain daripada biasa. Sangat2 menghiburkan. Cerekarama tersebut dibintangi oleh Arash Muhammad dan Fauziah Dato' Ahamad Daud sebagai teraju utamanya dan dibantu jua oleh beberapa artis lain. Antaranya, Nora Danish.
NO... I am not going to be a film critics now. Langsung tak berkeinginan sebegitu.
What I'm going to say is that.. saya sangat suka dengan watak yang dilakonkan oleh Ogy. Dia melakonkan watak sebagai seorang ibu yang serba boleh. She had a very successful business, she does not have any maid in her house, she managed her own house. Basically she did all the stuff and she is describe as a 'super woman'. Her life motto was ' Keep smiling eventhough when ur heart hurts'.
Sejujurnya, saya sangat kagum dengan watak itu.. dan saya benar2 ingin menjadi sebegitu suatu hari nanti. Insya'Allah jika diizinkan olehNya. Seboleh mungkin saya ingin menjadi seorang mama yang ceria, berfikiran positif sentiasa, cool, can do everything on her own, and never ever complained. Apa yang lebih menarik.. watak mama dalam cerita ini digambarkan sebagai seorang yang keep on giving without hoping for any rewards from her family... well I know that's how a Muslim should behave actually.. but.. I ain't perfect. Kadang2 saya sendiri nak pertolongan saya dibalas.. kadangkala.. saya prnh juga merungut bila di saat saya memerlukan bantuan tiada sesiapa yang sudi menolong, walhal saya pernah menolong mereka di suatu saat dan ketika yang lalu. *bad attitude*. Banyak lagi yang saya kena ubah jika saya ingin menjadi mama seperti dalam cerita ini. I ain't a positive thinker to be honest.. memang sentiasa negative. (anis + intan syaz confirm agree). BUT that shouldn't stop me from trying to be one. Yer.. yer saya tahu dari dulu lagi.. I keep on saying I want to improve my behaviour.. tp x jadi2 jugak kan??
Well.. I have to keep on trying kan?? Kalau saya nak jadi mama yang strong.. yang xkn pernah show her probs in front of her kids.. I have to start practise frm now on kan?? I will definitely do it. Cerekarama ini benar2 membuka mata saya. ^_^ This is also hidayah Allah bukan..
Just pray for me that I'll manage to improve my attitude and in the meanwhile I'll do my part as well.*hikhikhik*
