Yesterday, at 10.00 a.m camtue, Dalilah officially left the house for MRSM Baling.

Giler susah nk control tears. Nak nangis giler2.. tp sabar jerlaa~

All I said to her... " Don't cry.." n her replies.. "I won't.." It's actually a mantra for me.. I can't cry. Obviously...~

Bukan dia nk prg mana pun.. nk further study jer pun.

Deep inside my heart I hope she came back. Tapi x baik kan doa camtue.. I should doa for her safety for her happiness n for her success.

Nasib baik smlm sgt hectic. I was moving around KL the whole day. So my mind was a bit off. Xdela terfikir sgt pasal her nt being here.

Tp while driving smlm.. as usual on the radio.. normal station fly.fm. Dalilah memorize most of the songs there.. She would normally sing along with the songs. Semalam byk laa plak her fav songs. Biler dgr jer, mst terdetik jer dlm hati.. "this is her fav songs.." n then mula laa nk nangis. But I can't.. ada 2 org budak lelaki yg giler x gentleman dlm keta tuhh~ *bluekkk*

Lps nie dh xde dah nk hntr n amik adik frm KUMON. No sending n picking her up from tuition. No squash practice for her anymore. No teman for me at any kenduri anymore... No more budak kecik in the hse. Jarang dh dpt usik adik~ Dh xde rumate.. dh x boleh membebel kt dia bila dia sepahkan almari baju. Giler sunyi~ Sebulan sekali jer boleh gaduh dgn dia~

I know.. sooner or later she'll leave the house jugak. But I don't expect it to be this soon. I mean she's only 13.... All of us are against her decision.. but dia punyer degil.. Nauzubillah hi min zalik... Extremely degil. She wins.

I hope she'll be fine over there. I hope she'll excel in her studies. Semoga Allah melindungi dia.

*i'll miss her T_T*

I'm a mess when it comes to decision making involving my life. Seriously... why do I have to make decision abt uncertain things?? Hadoilaaa... kalau decision regarding financial... it's okay sebab I could base on some data to back it up. But when it comes to my life... adoilaaa.. nk base on apa ker??

I hate this.. Mata dh super duper mengantuk.. but my brain doesn't seem like she want to have a rest. Badan dh super duper penat nie. T_T

Kalaulaa at this very moment prince charles masuk meminang I.. I could easily say yes.. Then all my problems solve.. hahaha.. *jokes*. Naa.. that would just means I'm running away.

Nak tido.. Nak tido...

This must had been one of the most hectic week I've ever experienced in my life...

Monday :- Nothing much... except that I had my first ACCA exams in the evening. It was.... hmpphh.. Let me put this way.. "I was hoping for an excellent result before, but now.. all I'm asking for is PASS". *praying hard*

Tuesday :- Pretty normal.. except that I had to cut down my library time.. Got to sent Danial to his squash tournament at ASTAKA. Ohh.. n Dalilah received the official letter from MARA for an offer to pursue her studies at the new MRSM Baling, Kedah. She was definitely over the clouds when she received it.

Wednesday :- I received a birthday cake order early in the morning. Alhamdulillah.. Went out to BWY, Puchong to buy some 'assets'. Need to go to Klinik Kesihatan Kelana Jaya as well, to enquire and book an appointment for Nur Dalilah's medical check up.Halfway through.. to be exact on our way back frm BWY, received a call frm my mom.. 'suruh balik rumah skrg jugak'. It appears that, a distant relatives of mine passed away in a car accident. *innalillah* So, the whole plan changed. Need to pick up ayah frm LRT Kelana Jaya, then br prg the clinic n then baru they will go n visit. Sounds perfect... n it wasn't even peak hour yet. So I assume there will be no traffic... apparently, I am wrong. Gila ahhh the traffic. 1 hour okay from Kelana Jaya to Subang Jaya... itu pun Diana dh jd 'Michael Schumacher' dah whenever I can...

Thursday :- Need to bake the cakes n cupcakes. Ada delivery to Subang Alam malam ni. The problem is the theme of the cupcake is "Good To C U" to be given to the male boss. Gosh... I was clueless. One whole day duk pk nk buat apa laa nie~ I really hope Kak Marina likes it. Ibu need to pick up my grandma frm my mak long hse in Bukit Bandaraya, Shah Alam. They came back around 2. Ohhh.. I've bake the cake in the meantime n suddenly cake tuhh x jd.. n I dunno why~ Nvm still got time.. boleh bersabar lagi. Suddenly Danial was saying dia sakit perut n keep on screaming. When we fed him with water he says it's painful. We got panic.. bawak dia prg klinik kt depan rumah nie.. n then Dr bg referral letter to go to the hospital sebab dia suspect 'appendics'. Ohhhkayy~

Now, I'm getting nervous. Ibu suruh tinggal rumah.. to complete the baking n all.. They went to DEMC in the first place. Tp DEMC reject bcoz apparently the hospital is FULL !!!!!!!!! N I don't know why.. instead of SDMC or SMC.. my mom drove all the way to UH @ PPUM. So he went to EMERGENCY... n guess what??? Smp sana dlm kul 3.30 like dat... kul 5 pun belum jumpa doctor lg.. n then buat test segala.. kena tunggu 3 jam b4 dpt result. N finally... by 11 p.m. like dat Danial confirm appendics n kena operate esok pg. I was like o_O.. Kalau laa appendics tue pecah.. x ker giler?? So ayah balik frm hospital, we packed several stuff for both Danial n Ibu. Waktu tu pun Danial x dpt ward lg.. sebab bed FULL n dia kena tido kt emergency room. Huisy.. ramainyer yer orang sakit sekarang nie.

Btw, I deliver the cake with my lil sis that nite. Nasib baik x sesat~

Friday :- My day starts as early as 5.15 in the morning. Kena kejut Dalilah bgn sahur utk ganti puasa dia before off she went to MRSM. Then sent Dinie to the bus stop. Buat kek... n then kul 8.00 prg SMKSJ to request for an official letter stating that Danial is indeed a student of the school. For what purpose.. I have no idea. Ibu suruh amik.. pergi jerla~ Waktu prg, kek dalam oven, bila balik..... MY CAKE X JD JUGAK !!!!!!!!!!!! *waktu nie dh rasa nk nangis sgt2*. Dah start nk gelabah.. sebab cake nie nk kena deliver mlm nie. Kena think of another plan. For sure, x boleh guna dah resipi nie. In the meantime, deco cupcake yg another order dulu... Received a call frm ibu, cakap Danial dh nk masuk OT dah. Ayah pun nk gerak prg hsptl dah.. Siap jer deco cuppies tuhh.. Diana pecut prg putra heights sebab nk amik EI n then terus prg Giant putra heights utk beli necessary stuff nk buat another set of cake. Kepala otak mmg serabut. Bawak kereta toksah ckpla.. pecut giler2. By 12 dh smp rumah balik. Call ayah... n ayah ckp Danial dh klua dh n dh masuk ward dh. Esok discharge. Then only I tell the news to my grandma. Bake the new set of cake.. n now dalam oven. Alhamdulillah.. looks okay to me rite now. Tapi Diana x sempat dh nk buat roses guna icing tuhh. Beli jer gum paste roses. Ohhh~ I still haven't revise enough for my next 2 paper nie. *cuak tp redha jerla*. So that's why guna all instant jer skrg~

Saturday n Sunday x tau lg camner rupanyer~ Please no more drama.. Dah penat dah~ Diana nak study quietly jer now~ Tp byk lg x settle nie. Dalilah punyer stuff to asrama pun x beli lg~

But overall, mcm sedikit kagum dgn diri sndr. Diana bangun pg kul 5.15 tuhh~ Usually 6.30 kot for subuh prayer. Well considering the fact that I slept at 2 a.m. n bgn kul 5 a.m. that is something to me. So Diana, see it's nt that you cannot do it.. it's just that you don't want to.