Last weekend I was fortunate enough to witness an engagement of my secondary school friend and followed by a wedding of my cousin on the next day. I am happy for them.. but deep down I felt jealous (maybe??) and sad (T_T)...
This shouldn't happened. I should not felt sad. Initially I kinda hesitate to go to the wedding. Don't get me wrong.. I love wedding. Every single bit of it. I love wedding preparation so much to the extend that I dream of preparing my own wedding from scratch. Honestly, I kinda want to DIY everything.. but I know that's pretty impossible.:silly:
Now.. my dream wedding is nt the main topic here.. the main thing is that I'm having a swing feeling because of this occassion. Haih.. boleh x kalau saya nak buat statement.." I will get married to whoever yang masuk meminang first?? " ... S.U.M.P.A.H saya akan kena cepuk dengan parents saya if they knew abt this type of decision making.. hikhikhik. Wahai hati, kenapa nak kena sedih?? kenapa nk kena cemburu?? U perfectly know ur situation rite now kan?? Masalah betulla budak yang bernama Nur Diana nie kan??
Why is this happening? Kenapa saya kena go through all this roller coaster emotion? And why can't people around me stop asking the question jugak?? Can't blame them can I?? To make the matter even worse, every single day without fail I would browse through the bride to be's blog.. Lagila saya cemburu bukan. Ada ke patut.. saya cemburu dengan masjid yang akan didirikan oleh umat Muhammad yang lain. Patutnya saya bergembira untuk mereka dan mendoakan yang terbaik buat mereka bukan??
I know.. I know.. I am so hard to understand. Ohh.. pardon me for being one. But this is my journey of being myself. Wutever that happen now, is sth that will shape me for a better me in the future. [Apa yang saya merepek skrg nie??]
Ok.. I should stop now when my words still make sense though. Daa..
This shouldn't happened. I should not felt sad. Initially I kinda hesitate to go to the wedding. Don't get me wrong.. I love wedding. Every single bit of it. I love wedding preparation so much to the extend that I dream of preparing my own wedding from scratch. Honestly, I kinda want to DIY everything.. but I know that's pretty impossible.:silly:
Now.. my dream wedding is nt the main topic here.. the main thing is that I'm having a swing feeling because of this occassion. Haih.. boleh x kalau saya nak buat statement.." I will get married to whoever yang masuk meminang first?? " ... S.U.M.P.A.H saya akan kena cepuk dengan parents saya if they knew abt this type of decision making.. hikhikhik. Wahai hati, kenapa nak kena sedih?? kenapa nk kena cemburu?? U perfectly know ur situation rite now kan?? Masalah betulla budak yang bernama Nur Diana nie kan??
Why is this happening? Kenapa saya kena go through all this roller coaster emotion? And why can't people around me stop asking the question jugak?? Can't blame them can I?? To make the matter even worse, every single day without fail I would browse through the bride to be's blog.. Lagila saya cemburu bukan. Ada ke patut.. saya cemburu dengan masjid yang akan didirikan oleh umat Muhammad yang lain. Patutnya saya bergembira untuk mereka dan mendoakan yang terbaik buat mereka bukan??
I know.. I know.. I am so hard to understand. Ohh.. pardon me for being one. But this is my journey of being myself. Wutever that happen now, is sth that will shape me for a better me in the future. [Apa yang saya merepek skrg nie??]
Ok.. I should stop now when my words still make sense though. Daa..
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