Ohh well, I don't think I have much of a follower for me to justify my actions.. hehehehe :p

Well, I sincerely miss blogging, cos I believe this is the only medium where I could jot down what had happened in my life. I love to sometimes look back at my old entry, and then reflects on it. Honestly, whatever that had happened to me in the past makes me who I am today. Be it whether it's a joyful or tearful memories. It shaped me to be a person I am today.

Okay....I think I should start with updating the entry on my recent trip to Universal Studio Singapore (USS) with my office mate. I love USS to the max...hehehe to the extend I am willing to revisit the place, simply because I wanna let my brother and sister share the joy I experienced. 

Me being a scaredy cat...hell no I am going to ride on the crazy rides..but thank god I brought my psycho bff together and she made me rode every fearful ride. Ohh well I am so glad she did..as I enjoyed those afterwards.

Since it's pretty late right now.. I guess I would continue with the entry tomorrow perhaps. Esok nak kerja...maka tidak boleh tidur lambat.. :D

Nighty nite people (*mode perasan ada org lain baca blog nie*)

Assalamualaikum...

It's been so long..

All I can say..Insya'allah will start blogging actively from now on.

At the same time please drop by at my lil shops here

Will keep posting insya'allah ^_^

For now...all I need to do fake a smile on my face. I'll be fine. 

                                                          (13.03.1990 untill 21.02.2011)

Assalamualaikum...

It's been a long silence. Truth is I suffer a loss. One of my brother. I am yet to overcome the sadness/ grief till now. I lost a living garmin.. a car expert.. a game expert.. a gaduh partner.. an 'usik' partner and most importantly a BROTHER. Instead of us 4 we will now be left with only 3.

I cried like nobody business when I reach home after received the call. It felt so unreal. It doesn't look like he's dead. He looks like he's asleep. Only when you touch him you will know...n he's damn COLD.

I miss him. Really miss him...

Dear Nur Adrianis, thanks for coming.. really thanks and really appreciate it. Your hug really gave me strength to go through that painful day. Busuk..seriously thank you and I love you so much~

Dear Intan Syaz, thanks for flying all the way from Kertih for me. I know you're super duper busy with PPA going around and all dgn budget tight nyer. Seriously i'm out of words nk ckp terima kasih kat kau. Thanks sgt sebab cuti the next day.. Thanks sebab sanggup turun all the way frm Kertih. Sumpah aku xkn dpt balas jasa kau.

Dear Intan Nadia, thanks for coming for the tahlil with ur husband. Really grateful on your presence. Thank you sebab sanggup susah2 redah traffic to come to my hse. We knw hw bad traffic frm KLCC can be.

To others... thanks for the prayers and the doa. Hanya Allah dapat balas jasa kalian.

Dinie,

For all the kenduri I choose not to go and for all the cake orders I chose not to accept and for the exams I decide not to sit... It was all worth it. For all the penny spent on you...for all the tears fall down when you cried because of pain.. it was all worth it. For the sleepless night I had... it was worth it.

If and only if you can be here. Along nak peluk angah.. nak suap angah..nak laga hidung dengan angah..along nak tidur sebelah angah.. along nak jalan2 dengan angah.. But I can't do all those thing anymore kan.

Dear Dinie..
We'll meet in jannah insya'allah k. Please wait for me. Along nak jumpa angah lagi.. You will and forever will be my brother.

Assalamualaikum..

Niela namanya budak 'perak'...baru blaja cara2 blogging frm phone..*interesting kan??* Nmpk gayanya..I would nt have a reason nt to continue my blog laa kan?

I have thousands of stories literally.. Abt current and past and also plans for future. As this is my personal blog..I think I will write it down so that in the future I would be able to re-read all the entries and appreciate the journey I've made.

I am so in love with the technologies laa... I should be sleeping and yet here I am updating my blog through my phone. ^_^

Ya Allah...

Why am I such a crybaby?? Tolonglah Ya Allah...aku mohon sangat2..redhakan aku dengan takdir yang telah engkau tetapkan untuk aku dan keluargaku. Aku mohon redhaMu.

Tolong Ya Allah peliharalah hatiku agar aku tidak mempersoalkan takdirMu..agar aku tidak mempersoalkan qada' dan qadarMu..

p/s: Anis..Diana betul2 x larat dah~..Can I switch place with him. I can't bear to watch it. 

Yesterday, at 10.00 a.m camtue, Dalilah officially left the house for MRSM Baling.

Giler susah nk control tears. Nak nangis giler2.. tp sabar jerlaa~

All I said to her... " Don't cry.." n her replies.. "I won't.." It's actually a mantra for me.. I can't cry. Obviously...~

Bukan dia nk prg mana pun.. nk further study jer pun.

Deep inside my heart I hope she came back. Tapi x baik kan doa camtue.. I should doa for her safety for her happiness n for her success.

Nasib baik smlm sgt hectic. I was moving around KL the whole day. So my mind was a bit off. Xdela terfikir sgt pasal her nt being here.

Tp while driving smlm.. as usual on the radio.. normal station fly.fm. Dalilah memorize most of the songs there.. She would normally sing along with the songs. Semalam byk laa plak her fav songs. Biler dgr jer, mst terdetik jer dlm hati.. "this is her fav songs.." n then mula laa nk nangis. But I can't.. ada 2 org budak lelaki yg giler x gentleman dlm keta tuhh~ *bluekkk*

Lps nie dh xde dah nk hntr n amik adik frm KUMON. No sending n picking her up from tuition. No squash practice for her anymore. No teman for me at any kenduri anymore... No more budak kecik in the hse. Jarang dh dpt usik adik~ Dh xde rumate.. dh x boleh membebel kt dia bila dia sepahkan almari baju. Giler sunyi~ Sebulan sekali jer boleh gaduh dgn dia~

I know.. sooner or later she'll leave the house jugak. But I don't expect it to be this soon. I mean she's only 13.... All of us are against her decision.. but dia punyer degil.. Nauzubillah hi min zalik... Extremely degil. She wins.

I hope she'll be fine over there. I hope she'll excel in her studies. Semoga Allah melindungi dia.

*i'll miss her T_T*

I'm a mess when it comes to decision making involving my life. Seriously... why do I have to make decision abt uncertain things?? Hadoilaaa... kalau decision regarding financial... it's okay sebab I could base on some data to back it up. But when it comes to my life... adoilaaa.. nk base on apa ker??

I hate this.. Mata dh super duper mengantuk.. but my brain doesn't seem like she want to have a rest. Badan dh super duper penat nie. T_T

Kalaulaa at this very moment prince charles masuk meminang I.. I could easily say yes.. Then all my problems solve.. hahaha.. *jokes*. Naa.. that would just means I'm running away.

Nak tido.. Nak tido...

This must had been one of the most hectic week I've ever experienced in my life...

Monday :- Nothing much... except that I had my first ACCA exams in the evening. It was.... hmpphh.. Let me put this way.. "I was hoping for an excellent result before, but now.. all I'm asking for is PASS". *praying hard*

Tuesday :- Pretty normal.. except that I had to cut down my library time.. Got to sent Danial to his squash tournament at ASTAKA. Ohh.. n Dalilah received the official letter from MARA for an offer to pursue her studies at the new MRSM Baling, Kedah. She was definitely over the clouds when she received it.

Wednesday :- I received a birthday cake order early in the morning. Alhamdulillah.. Went out to BWY, Puchong to buy some 'assets'. Need to go to Klinik Kesihatan Kelana Jaya as well, to enquire and book an appointment for Nur Dalilah's medical check up.Halfway through.. to be exact on our way back frm BWY, received a call frm my mom.. 'suruh balik rumah skrg jugak'. It appears that, a distant relatives of mine passed away in a car accident. *innalillah* So, the whole plan changed. Need to pick up ayah frm LRT Kelana Jaya, then br prg the clinic n then baru they will go n visit. Sounds perfect... n it wasn't even peak hour yet. So I assume there will be no traffic... apparently, I am wrong. Gila ahhh the traffic. 1 hour okay from Kelana Jaya to Subang Jaya... itu pun Diana dh jd 'Michael Schumacher' dah whenever I can...

Thursday :- Need to bake the cakes n cupcakes. Ada delivery to Subang Alam malam ni. The problem is the theme of the cupcake is "Good To C U" to be given to the male boss. Gosh... I was clueless. One whole day duk pk nk buat apa laa nie~ I really hope Kak Marina likes it. Ibu need to pick up my grandma frm my mak long hse in Bukit Bandaraya, Shah Alam. They came back around 2. Ohhh.. I've bake the cake in the meantime n suddenly cake tuhh x jd.. n I dunno why~ Nvm still got time.. boleh bersabar lagi. Suddenly Danial was saying dia sakit perut n keep on screaming. When we fed him with water he says it's painful. We got panic.. bawak dia prg klinik kt depan rumah nie.. n then Dr bg referral letter to go to the hospital sebab dia suspect 'appendics'. Ohhhkayy~

Now, I'm getting nervous. Ibu suruh tinggal rumah.. to complete the baking n all.. They went to DEMC in the first place. Tp DEMC reject bcoz apparently the hospital is FULL !!!!!!!!! N I don't know why.. instead of SDMC or SMC.. my mom drove all the way to UH @ PPUM. So he went to EMERGENCY... n guess what??? Smp sana dlm kul 3.30 like dat... kul 5 pun belum jumpa doctor lg.. n then buat test segala.. kena tunggu 3 jam b4 dpt result. N finally... by 11 p.m. like dat Danial confirm appendics n kena operate esok pg. I was like o_O.. Kalau laa appendics tue pecah.. x ker giler?? So ayah balik frm hospital, we packed several stuff for both Danial n Ibu. Waktu tu pun Danial x dpt ward lg.. sebab bed FULL n dia kena tido kt emergency room. Huisy.. ramainyer yer orang sakit sekarang nie.

Btw, I deliver the cake with my lil sis that nite. Nasib baik x sesat~

Friday :- My day starts as early as 5.15 in the morning. Kena kejut Dalilah bgn sahur utk ganti puasa dia before off she went to MRSM. Then sent Dinie to the bus stop. Buat kek... n then kul 8.00 prg SMKSJ to request for an official letter stating that Danial is indeed a student of the school. For what purpose.. I have no idea. Ibu suruh amik.. pergi jerla~ Waktu prg, kek dalam oven, bila balik..... MY CAKE X JD JUGAK !!!!!!!!!!!! *waktu nie dh rasa nk nangis sgt2*. Dah start nk gelabah.. sebab cake nie nk kena deliver mlm nie. Kena think of another plan. For sure, x boleh guna dah resipi nie. In the meantime, deco cupcake yg another order dulu... Received a call frm ibu, cakap Danial dh nk masuk OT dah. Ayah pun nk gerak prg hsptl dah.. Siap jer deco cuppies tuhh.. Diana pecut prg putra heights sebab nk amik EI n then terus prg Giant putra heights utk beli necessary stuff nk buat another set of cake. Kepala otak mmg serabut. Bawak kereta toksah ckpla.. pecut giler2. By 12 dh smp rumah balik. Call ayah... n ayah ckp Danial dh klua dh n dh masuk ward dh. Esok discharge. Then only I tell the news to my grandma. Bake the new set of cake.. n now dalam oven. Alhamdulillah.. looks okay to me rite now. Tapi Diana x sempat dh nk buat roses guna icing tuhh. Beli jer gum paste roses. Ohhh~ I still haven't revise enough for my next 2 paper nie. *cuak tp redha jerla*. So that's why guna all instant jer skrg~

Saturday n Sunday x tau lg camner rupanyer~ Please no more drama.. Dah penat dah~ Diana nak study quietly jer now~ Tp byk lg x settle nie. Dalilah punyer stuff to asrama pun x beli lg~

But overall, mcm sedikit kagum dgn diri sndr. Diana bangun pg kul 5.15 tuhh~ Usually 6.30 kot for subuh prayer. Well considering the fact that I slept at 2 a.m. n bgn kul 5 a.m. that is something to me. So Diana, see it's nt that you cannot do it.. it's just that you don't want to.

hepi... suker... seronok.. bahagia.. ^_^

hikhikhik...

Well, currently I'm doing my ACCA papers. For this coming exam, insya'Allah I'll be sitting for 3 paper (F5, F6, & F7). Honestly... I'm absolutely in love with my course rite now. I'm a part time student... thus, all my classes are held in the evening till nite and on weekends. Penat, mmg penat... tapi sumhow I just love learning it. *mcm x percaya jer Diana ckp camnie*

I hope my love for this 3 papers won't fade away with time. I enjoy going to the class, I enjoy learning it and I enjoy doing homework. In my opinion.. lg seronok drpd buat degree dulu~. Saya suka laa this 3 paper. I do hope I can score this 3 paper. Well, actually kalau boleh nak jugak rasa dpt world price maybe..*silently pray*. Nothing impossible kan?? ^_^

Menyesal ker buat degree?? Hurmm... nmpk mcm waste time kan? But I don't see it that way... it's the best path for me. Byk yg saya belajar masa buat degree. Saya kenal diri saya dgn lebih mendalam.. *yer ker??* Kalau saya x buat degree, saya x kn jumpa rakan2 saya yg hebat2 mcm skrg, saya xkn berjaya gather all the experiences mcm yg saya ada skrg nie kan. Nvm, kita merancang Dia yang menentukan n HE definitely knows what is best for me. Maka... saya perlu lah bersabar dn bertawakkal sahaja dgn takdir yang telah dia tetapkan.

how am i suppose to know that I am making the right decision?

of course laa saya x kn tahu kan?? it's obvious isn't it.. selagi u haven't experienced it.. u won't know.

to be honest.. saya sangat takut dgn keputusan yang saya dh buat. quite a rush decision. but based on past experience... kalau ikut cakap ibu n ayah insya'allah everything will turn out fine.. makanyer, pasrah dan bertawakkal sahajalah.

i guess i need my schoolbag once again~ ^_^

title yang sgt poyo... tapi kinda true.

well i'm planning to start my own bakery business. sekarang duk browse through the ideas from other bakers. serious semua sgt lovely.

this coming new year i have one fondant cupcake order and i'm seriously clueless for the kinda design i shud give. sebab tuela duk browse through blog semua org kot2 dpt sumber ilham. *sigh*

Roughly I do have the idea... tp tkt nnt org ckp saya tiru design diorg plak. Aduyai.. camner nie. x per ker erk kalau macam copy paste sana sket dulu nnt dah lama2 br blh dpt sumber ilham sndr kot kan.. huhu~

boleyh ker erk?

~takottt~

baru bekerja sebulan setengah... tue pun part time jer. tp xdela part time mana... sibuk mengalahkan org kerja office hour jer rasanya.

dahla begitu.. tiba2 laptop bercadang hendak bermanja-manja kembali.. bila laptop sudah selesai bermanja.. wireless detector dan internet rumah pula bercadang hendak menyambung proses bermanja. Allahu akbar. Mujurlah saya sendiri mmg x berkesempatan untuk online langsung2. bila weekend jer.. yg penting hanya rasa seperti hendak merehatkan badan. sungguh.. bekerja di kedai kek nie sangat2 penat yer. tak senang yer hendak men'deco' dan membuat kek ini. Rehat ker? xdela jugak.. macam banyak jer undangan perkahwinan yang perlu dipenuhi. Ada saja aktiviti2 yang perlu diselesaikan.

Bukan hendak merungut.. cuma terkadang.. terasa sedikit sepi + ralat. Makanan untuk badan tak pernah lupa.. tapi makanan untuk hati macam dilupakan. Lama sangat rasanya since the last day saya mendengar ceramah agama. Yer, memanglah boleh dengar through radio.. tapi lain rasanya. Usrah pun dah lama tinggal.. *sigh*

Mana nak cari yer?? Bukan x nak join.. tapi kerja saya x sama seperti pekerjaan orang lain. Kalau time banyak order.. jangan harap nak boleh balik awal. Kalau boleh mmg sgt2 nak join usrah.. tapi nanti kalau x dpt bg commitment...lg rasa sedeyh + bersalah. Makanya... dengar sahajalah ceramah di radio I.K.I.M ^_^.

Sabar yer Diana... Insya'allah behind a cloud there will always be a silver lining.

Well.. Obviously I didn't earn as much as my friend for the time being..BUT the most important thing is dat I'm totally in love with what I'm doing rite now. Sangat heaven okay... all I have to worry abt is whether my cake will turns out good or bad; what design shud I make on the cuppies and that's abt it.

Saya sudah jatuh chenta dgn kerja ini.. *love*

On top of that I acquire new skills.. something that I thought I would never do in my entire life. Thanks to my mom for finding this part time job for me *yes !! my MOM*. Who knows this might come in handy sumtime in future huh.. [ no PETRONAS, I won't lupakan u]

N this is my employer

Sile..sile order cake or cuppies from here.. ^_^

p/s:- PETRONAS dearie.. please call me fast before I lupakan all the accounting terms yg I dh blaja for the past 5 years. Nanti x pasal2 asyik ingat how to do rosette, shells, fondant n etc.. *hik3~*

This entry is solely dedicated to a good friend of mine. Aja Aja Adrianis Adnan.. Chaiyokk Anis !!!

Good Luck.. All the best Anis.. Anis boleh !!! Go!! Go!! Go!!..

I will always pray for our success.

Usaha keras ini adalah sunnah Rasulullah, Tawakkal itu pula jiwa baginda..

Bittaufiq wan najah Nur Adrianis Adnan..

p/s:- i know u'll read this.. good luck !!

hugs and kisses all the way from subang jaya

I do have allergies on food prepared by others...

Last weekend, on Saturday I had to attend the wedding of the son of my dad's frenz.. Obviously, we went to the wedding. The food was okay... but the drinks. I guess they didn't used filtered water for the ice cube.. well can't blame them can I?? Org lain elok jer, saya yang terlajak manja. Sekali malam tue terus kami 3 beradik demam okay.. Knowing me.. kalau dh demam harusla lambat nak baik. Dah naik cuak okay.. sebab esok tue nk bwat open hse kt rumah plak. Satu hape pun x prepare lg nie..

Malam tue, my mum insist for me to sleep early so that I will have a good rest. So after taking some medication terus laa tidur and bangun dlm kategori xdela awal sgt.. around 6.40 like that. Bangun2 jer terusla bersilat kat dapur utk buat kerja semua tue.. yerla satu apa pun x prepare okay~

Since Ahad tue sgt hectic kan, mlm tue terus flat and on Monday morning tue rasa badan x sedap balik. Sakit tekak yang melampau horror and badan kejap panas, kejap sejuk camtue. As usual, refuse to go to the clinic. Doctor is my enemy remember... :P All I did was rest at home.

Come Tuesday, I got a terrible headache. *well particularly due to the shocking news I received the night before* And body temperature xdela okay sangat.. tp xdela panas sgt mcm few days before. Dah petang tue mmg alhamdulillah, dah sihat sket.. and since later on saya dh ada date dgn one of my sayangss might as well go on jer kan. So off I went for dinner at one of the restaurant in Subang Jaya. I ordered nasi goreng kampung with teh suam. The food was so-so jerla xdela giler sedap camtue. Tapi okayy~

Sekali malam tue sakit perut giler2 okay. Pagi tue continue ke toilet x tau berapa kali kot and smp skrg perut masih senak2. Harus kena perli dgn my mom okay pasal makan kt luar. I shud learnt my lesson laa.

Nak kata saya berlagak diva pun boleh gak laa kot sebab mmg macam mengada sungguh tue. *geramm*

Alhamdulillah..

Sungguh saya sangat2 bersyukur sebab Petronas still x panggil saya untuk kerja lagi. Mmg betul macam yang ibu cakap.. 'Allah dah rancang semuanya sempurna untuk awak'. *degil betul Diana*

If offer tue datang sekarang.. which mean I would be in Permata for PIPE rite now kan??.. I seriously dun think I could handle all this together. Sungguh, ujian kali ini bukan seperti biasa... when I thought I've had the most difficult ever with my final sem + graduation thingy, this appears to be wayyyyy difficult. SERIOUSLY !!

Sungguh saya betul2 bersyukur dengan takdir yang telah Allah tentukan ini. I seriously couldn't ask for more. All I've got to do now.. brace myself and face wutever that is in front of me. Allah tahu saya boleh go through all this kan.. He definitely knows me better than I know myself.

Ya Allah aku mohon sangat2 padaMu kurniakan aku kekuatan untuk aku hadapi semua ini Ya Allah..

Well.. I dun have the kind of allergies where I can't eat seafood or chicken or nuts etc...
BUT.. my kind of allergies are more related with cleanliness maybe..~

Bukanlah nak perasan diri ini 'DIVA' or anything.. but if makan kat luar or anything.. selalu jer saya akan sakit tekak after dine-in dkt sana. That would happened because the water. They might nt filtered the water, hence excessive amt of chlorine.. =( which will then menyebabkan saya sakit tekak.

Another allergies that I have is that saya x boleh makan cuka2 lain selain distilled vinegar.. (saya x ingat brand apa kalau kt m'sia nie..). So kalau makan kt kedai atau rumah orang, saya selalunya akan mengelak utk order nasi ayam terutamanya. Sebab utk buat sos cili nasi ayam kan memerlukan cuka kan.. n most people didn't use this distilled vinegar. Kalau saya makan, saya mmg confirm akan dpt distinguish and kemudian akan sakit tekak yg sgt dahsyatnya.

Another thing would be food, kalau mmg saya makan jer mana2 yg saya suka, for example pasar malam ker hapa ker.. dan kalau kebetulan orang yang buat tue x masak dgn betul + bersih.. saya confirm akan sakit perut. Nie pun bukan nak perasan DIVA.. tp mmg dh macam tue nk buat caner.

Banyak lg sebenarnya yang akan terjadi, if saya silap pilih kedai makan..

And that is why.. kadang2 orang ingat saya nie golongan yg 'high class' pdhal saya biasa2 jer.. I can't simply eat anywhere or wherever I want to. Byk factor kena take into consideration. To be honest, I can't eat at Mamak.. Beside I am not a fan of them either. So.. macam xdela kisah sangat pun~

Semua nie terjadi sebab my mum and dad always use first class ingredients in cooking. And I guess, my mom pun dikurniakan kebolehan memasak yg sangat hebat. She prefer to cook on her own wutever we want to eat rather than beli kat luar. Beside we do have different citarasa than others.. Selalu jer, org recommend tempat tue ckp sangat2 sedap.. tapi bila makan... biasa2 jer. Kalau dulu waktu kecik2.. confirm laju jer saya comment terang-terangan.. " x sedapla bu !!".. *hehehe* sekarang nie behave laa sket~

Sekarang nie.. kalau orang tanya the food yg diorang masak sedap ke x, kalau betul sedap saya akan jawab.. sedap tapi kalau pada saya biasa2 jer.. saya akan berdiam diri and continue makan just for the sake of finishing it and xkn tambah2 dah.. ^_^

Dulu.. ingatkan bila balik kt Malaysia nie senang nak makan halal food.. rupa2nya lagi susah dr kt UK. Yerlaa.. imagine if the owner @ main owner of the shop tue non muslim. Do you really think they would bought the ingredient used from a muslim vendor. I am sorry.. but I doubt that. Even kalau prg kedai Muslim pun.. sure ker cara2 sembelihan ayam or lembu tadi tuhh benar2 mengikut cara2 penyembelihan Islam. Lately nie banyak jer berita, sembelihan tidak dilakukan dengan cara yang sepatutnya. HORROR okay !!! Food tue later on akan jadi darah daging kita tau. Kalau x pasti halal haramnya camner nak makan. Banyaklah lg reason kenapa saya kurang gemar makan kt luar. Pengesahan halal pun boleh jadi issue jugak. Imagine... JAKIM Malaysia pun boleh bg pengesahan halal bukan.. tp kenapa sesetengah kedai went for Halal Asia Pacific for example. Why do they have to go to that extend?? Kenapa nk susah2 dptkan Halal Asia Pacific daripada Halal JAKIM jer??

Kalau nk cerita pasal Halal n Haram nie.. x tahula entry nie akan jadi panjang mana... Infact dh lari tajuk nie..*hikhikhik*. All I can say, buku Halal n Haram yg dikeluarkan oleh persatuan pengguna pulau pinang tuhh mmg sangat banyak info okay~. Bukan food jer yang nk kena jaga.. semua benda kot. And I do mean EVERYTHING..

till then.. daa~